KaedeX503

...with logging in? I've been using the same password for my account for a long time, and suddenly dA brands my password as "incorrect". I decided to change it and everything's normal again. The very next day I use the new password and dA brands that one "incorrect" as well!? What on Earth is going on???

I changed my password for the last time now, and I'm afraid that when the next day comes, dA won't let me log in again. Seriously, what the fuck dA??

Anyway guys, I have a lot of things to talk about, most of it good news, but I barely have much time to write, so I will follow up over the next fortnight. All I can say is that I'm in a much better shape now than I was a few months back (especially reading my last journal entry, which is the most depressing period I admit...)

Thanks everyone. See you all soon.

My apologies to everyone who were worried about me because I disappeared after New Year's Eve.
For those who didn't catch up on my Twitter updates in the New Year, I had a lot to say about where my work in MMD is going and 3D modelling in general.

As planned from my dA journal last year in April - May, I'm no longer working on MMD as I've already moved over to Blender 3D. Progression in modelling and design is my priority, so spending spare time on making fanworks like Romano's Mansion will only hinder my intended progress. It takes months to make my MMD videos on Youtube, I can't risk using precious time for it anymore as I'm growing older and busier than ever... I'm currently struggling with financial problems and family issues. These problems have derailed my plans for the 5th or 6th time now. I'm disappointed and irritated that life can treat me cruelly when all I want to do is work on something I enjoy and sharing it with other people. December was supposed to be the month I would complete my planned videos, but the tragic incident I suffered on my birthday last year on November 27th made me grow bitter and sadder each passing day, Christmas Eve being the worse day, procrastination was inevitable. I tried so hard to keep continuing, but I stopped, I've run out of motivation, it doesn't make it any better with the scorching Australian summer weather.

This year I'm undergoing a major lifestyle change, which possibly means moving to another state. Reflecting on my life last year in 2012, I would conclude it was probably the worse year of my life. I don't need to get into detail about what I was going through because I understand every human being on Earth has went through similar hardships. As a young adult trying to return to the real world again, I had many difficulties pursuing my hobbies and just being happy. I can't work on anything until I'm well adjusted again, but it's going to take months, maybe even years... I don't know when the time will be, but I'll let everyone know.

I'm feeling sick right now. If there are any spelling errors or things don't make sense, I apologise in advance. I still check messages on Twitter and dA, but I won't be as active.

As with every journal entry I write, thank you all for encouraging me and just being a friend. I never take anything for granted, so I've always been grateful for the love and support I've been given and remember the words you have written to me. There was a time I felt like I was nobody, but everyone here makes me feel that I have something to share with the world, even the little things.

Thank You For Being Here.

KaedeX503

EDIT 29/12/2012: Animations are on hold while I'm dealing with internal/personal issues. My apologies everyone. I'll be back.

Hey guys! I have asked my subscribers and watchers on who should join Iceland & Norway in the next video I will be making. (See previous journal).

1st: Finland (8 votes)
2nd: Denmark (7 votes)
3rd: Sweden (3 votes)

Finland has won the vote by 1 point ahead of Denmark, with Sweden following behind both. It's quite a surprising turnout!

Thank you for giving me your input guys! I now have a quiver and arrows to model before I animate. I think the video will be ready maybe before Christmas or after. I'm gonna try my best to make it look fun!

Thank you everyone! XD

Hello everyone, it's been a while hasn't it? I'll be uploading a video next week. This video will feature Iceland, Norway and one more Nordic character. I'm in limbo as to which Nordic character I want to animate so I'm asking my subscribers & watchers. Who should I animate along with Iceland & Norway?

1) Axe wielding Denmark
2) Sword wielding Sweden
3) Bow & arrow equipped Finland

Comment/message with your favourite Nordic! You have until midnight Wednesday. I will count votes along with the ones I will receive from Twitter & Youtube.

This will really help me decide and give me an idea on what to model and how I should animate, so don't be shy! XD

P.S
This will be a fighting video. I'm aware of the MMD rules, so it's a training video on fighting unmanned targets, so no worries on all parties XD

P.S.S
Thank you everyone for the birthday wishes on the 27th November. To be frank I was really down on my birthday, so it gave me a lot of joy that you, my watchers took your time wishing me a happy birthday. A word of joy can make a person's day brighter, so I really appreciated it!^^

KaedeX503

First of all I'll write the sour news before the fun news.

The sour news is that I've been informed today I have an exam scheduled for the next week or two. Therefore I have to put my studies first again. The videos I was working on this week will be postponed until the December when my exams finish and my internet speed comes back (thus easy uploading time for me).

The fun/good news is that my exams officially finish on the 26th of November, that means my summer holidays start much earlier than my peers. Besides finding a job/doing small pay jobs, I have all the time in the world to work on my modelling and animation videos. You will expect to see a lot from me in December, because I will be animating and modelling a lot. It would probably make up for all the lost time I got between July until now lol. I plan to wake up early everyday and work on them because I love my hobby THAT much. I have a feeling I may even release all of my videos in this one December month, it's crazy, but it will be especially fun on my end! XD

Lifewise I will be starting a brand new university course. It's a double degree in computer engineering AND games and design. It's a surprise to myself that I would shift from psychology (studying to be a psychologist) to now lending my experiences into a course about technical programming and video games design, which I LOVE!

I still don't believe that all this happened because I discovered Hetalia in 2010, then MMD in 2011, and now I figured out what I want to do in my life. It's just amazing how things change in 2 years. It's amazing that it took me 2-3 years to realise it. I am 100% sure now that I know what truly makes me happy and what keeps me feeling alive. Some things personal, some things everyone knows about. I've always been thinking of my own goals and what I need to be where I want to go. Being in charge of video game/animation projects is one of my lifelong goals!

I've always been so thankful of the communities I've been in, you've always been so supportive of me, and I love you all for it. I've been through a lot of family issues for last couple of months, but I am very glad that you all understand that I am only human and disruption of my schedule is inevitable.

Thank you guys. I hope you will enjoy the weirdass works I will be uploading in December!

Cheers!

KaedeX503
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List of videos I'm creating for 2012 before I go onto hiatus:
1) Broadcast Interruption
2) Idle Space News (Untitled)
3) Romano's Mansion Ep. 7
4) Romano's Mansion Ep. 8
5) Idle Space News (Untitled)

List of videos I will take forever on but I will someday finish it.
1) HetaSmash First Look
2) Super Hetalia Kart